LEAP OF FAITH.........SCARY?!!
Have you ever had one of those times where you can almost hear God speaking to you through his Holy Spirit? Where it is louder than that still small voice, almost like a booming sound system at a concert. Well, I have and though I love it when He speaks to me, it can be scary too. Not the voice itself, but what it is (God) prompting you to do.......take that leap of faith and watch my power, God says. Oh boy!!! Something big is about to happen and I believe this with every cell inside my body. 2 Timothy 1:7 says, "For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind."
You see I have been on permanent disability (SSI) since 2009 with all my physical and mental issues, but one of my goals with my Young Living business was to get off of SSI. Well, that is happening a little sooner than I had anticipated. My check has been dwindling and dwindling for a while now which started when I married my best friend, Marc. And with every little raise he has gotten, SSI has taken more and more out so that I am down to a meager $272 a month. Now this is not a lot of money, but when you live paycheck to paycheck just to pay your bills it seems like a lot and you become pretty dependent on it. Keep in mind, Marc makes a lot of money in this day and age of a whole $14 hr. Whoop-Whoop!! Seriously?!!! Please don't think that that comment was directed towards my husband, he is a great provider. It's just that the government thinks that that is so much in the day we live in. HA! Let them try to live on that and see if they don't change the cost of living standards?!!!
Well, after the Holy Spirits prompting, much prayer, a lot of Bible reading, a talk with my Pastor and many discussions with my husband; I have decided to be obedient and take that leap of faith. It is funny how it is working out this way, since it is that time for my review anyway to see if I still qualify for benefits. Will there be uncertainties?.....YES! Will there be less food in the house?......YES! Will we have to cut corners on electricity, like less A/C and heat?........YES! Will we be able to still have those splurges and eat out?......NO! Will I have to cut down on my ER (oils) order for a bit?........YES! Now that part scares me too, since there are so many items my body needs. Philippians 4:19 says, "But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus." Since starting Young Living products I haven't had to go to the Doctor hardly at all, just for those extreme moments with my neurosurgeon. This is one area that is still being worked out, again a leap of faith, but God ALWAYS takes great care of me in a mighty way.
I also think that this is a very strong incentive to give me that push to step up my business game. To slap fear in the face and as Nike says, "JUST DO IT!" I have been praying that God would bless my business in a mighty way, in a way that I can give him all the glory. But how can I expect him to bless it if I am hanging onto that $272 like it is GOLD? Like it means more to me than life? How can I expect God to bless me when I haven't been honest with the government about my income with Young Living, which is about the same amount I get from SSI? He can't!!! So I am being obedient and taking that step, knowing that He will provide and prosper us exceeding abundantly above. Integrity and honesty are huge and I want to be known for both of these. Matthew 6:33 says, "But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."
So today is a new day and the start of a new life and as a friend said to me, "You can do this, time to take hold of a new future and hang on for the journey." I cannot wait to see what my Heavenly Father has in store for us and I cannot wait to see how it is played out. Now to just be patient and watch with high expectations......because MY GOD does NOT disappoint! Ephesians 3:20 says, "Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us."