Insecurity....Identity.....Who Am I?
Do you suffer from INSECURITY like I do? I think if we are honest, most of us are in some area of our life or maybe even all, suffer from being insecure or not knowing who we are (IDENTITY). I think that if I had known years ago, I mean truly known that I am HIS, a child of God and a sister in Christ, my life probably wouldn't have gone down the road it did. But that is the past and I cannot change that, what I can change is how I view myself now and live a life of being secure and confident in who I am as a child of God.
Most of my life, up until 3 years ago, was spent in the darkness of addiction, prostitution, thievery, homelessness and so much more. I was lost and didn't know who I was or why I was here, other than to suffer, by personal choices and lack of love for myself. But that all changed the day I fully gave my life to Jesus and started following after Him.
Did you know that Satan tried to tempt Jesus by attempting to cast doubt on who Jesus was and to Whom He belonged? It was in the desert, (Matthew 4:6) says, Satan said, "If you are the Son of God." Satan's tactics are no different for us. He will attack our identity and if we don't have a firm grasp on who we are and to whom we belong, we will be vulnerable to his lies. Anyone who is lacking that firm grasp of who they are and their values for which they stand can and will fall prey to the enemy's lies; single women looking for companionship at the expense of their virtue (I know because I have done it), businessmen/women willing to backslide on integrity to get ahead, even Christ followers stuck in secret sin when victory is within their reach. That is why teaching our children early on who they belong to.....Jesus.......is so very important. I wish my parents had taught me this and I wish I had also taught my children that they are God's children, that they belong to Him.
So many of us live our lives trying to please others to find acceptance and validation. I know because I was always changing to become what I thought others wanted me to be so that they would accept me and like me. What we are really searching for is our identity and the confidence that comes from knowing it. Insecurity means no sense of identity, which makes it easy to believe lies, leading to an unrealistic fear of what people think. I spent too much time in this cycle, what a yucky way to live. It's no wonder I have struggled with depression and addiction. And it's no wonder the enemy wants to deceive us about identity since everything we do flows from that source. Remember, YOU are a child of God, He made you, Christ died for you, and that should tell you something....right?!!!
Our identity is found in HIM. The unchanging, all powerful, Creator of our souls. He already knows everything about you and He still loves you. He knows your secret sins, fears, worries and thoughts AND...He still accepts you for who you are......just as you are.....right where you are. (Romans 5:8) says, "But God commendeth His love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us." Did you hear that? Jesus died for us while we were still sinners, now that is love and that should show who we belong to. We are HIS!!! We can be sure that He never changes so our identity is rock solid, but we have to stay connected to Him to keep rooted in this security. I know that the ONLY reason I am doing so well in my sobriety is because I have finally seen who I am in HIM. There is a song by Casting Crowns called "Who Am I" that has forever changed the way I see myself. Please don't think that I am saying it was this song that changed me because it wasn't. That is only done by realizing who I am in Christ, submitting to my Heavenly Father and daily reading His word, the Bible.
Life is not perfect, nor am I, but life is truly amazing and there is an unexplained joy and freedom when you continually look to Jesus for who you are. My prayer is that my story helps someone, at least one, to find out for themselves who YOU ARE IN CHRIST JESUS AND THAT YOU LIVE WITH YOUR IDENTITY IN SWEET SECURITY OF OUR HEAVENLY FATHER.
BLESSING TO YOU!